Six months ago, I convinced myself that the universe was conspiring in my favor. Abel and I are getting married soon (170 days to go!), we don’t have kids (yet), I’m covered for health insurance until I turn 26 (thanks mom), and Goldensun Photography has a few gigs lined up (the next one is just three days away!). Six months ago, these conditions were good enough for me.
Last night, I lay awake in bed questioning six-months-ago-Molly. I was asking myself if I was really ready. If you know me, you know I am the type of person who needs security to thrive. The ISFJ, Virgo, Enneagram 6, whichever personality label you want to use. To quit my secure job with a stable income is against my very nature. So the simple answer is “no”, I am not ready, and honestly I never will feel 100% ready.
Today, I logged off my work computer for the last time and said goodbye to the wonderful people on my team. After everything was made official with HR, I walked out the double doors with my last paycheck in hand, got into my car, and immediately felt the urge to throw up. My old routine is pronounced dead…so what do I do now? I immediately drove one city away to see Abel. Once I got a hug and a tour of his office, I felt better and went grocery shopping at Trader Joes (does that count as retail therapy?). A few hours and some internal processing later, I’m no longer feeling like a fish out of water. It’s finally sinking in that my occupation is now wedding photographer.
This new chapter definitely has some growing pains in store, but I am lucky enough to have the support of Abel, friends, and family. If you know anyone getting married, Goldensun Photography is open for business.